Thursday, February 21, 2013

Pillars of Salt and Pillars of Sand

If there is no love in the world, we will make a new world, and we will give it heavy walls, and we will furnish it with soft red interiors, from the inside out, and give it a knocker that resonates like a diamond falling to a jeweler's felt so that we should never hear it. Love me, because love does not exist, and I have tried every thing that does. 

— Jonathan Safran Foer, Everything is Illuminated 

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Innate Ramblings

Untame, these vast, swirling,
Oceans of mischief and wonder,
Lie dark, their waves curling,
Lapping at the prow as we sail yonder.

Wind battered sails, billowing, 
Canvases of cloth of fabric;
Pulling our vessel to the elements, bellowing,
And howling to the midnight storm, the thunderclap.

Crash, a flash, a dash,
Of light enchants us, to,
Look above!
An albatross, flying to our destination anew,

Its white glows,
Against the midnight cloud,
It flies across, to a place only it knows,
Its purity lies against a shroud:

Of billowing nature, swirling,
Skies of mischief and wonder,
Lie dark, their winds howling,
Lightning flashing, thunder crashing, waves thrashing.


(via James of

Saturday, February 9, 2013

The War Without

You don't need water to feel like you're drowning, do you? ─ Jodi Lynn Picoult, Nineteen Minutes

I felt that there was a piece of me missing, a piece that had become so unnerved that it fell away without me feeling it. I didn't even know what piece it was ─ I just felt the gap, and whatever it was, it must have been important. ─ David Levithan, Love is the Higher Law

I remained too much inside my head and ended up losing my mind. ─ Edgar Allan Poe, Complete Writings

We are dying from overthinking. We are slowly killing ourselves by thinking about everything. Think. Think. Think. You can never trust the human mind anyway. It's a death trap. ─ Philip Anthony Hopkins

It is the ultimate shadow, the defeat of creation; this is the curse at work, the curse that feeds on all life. Everywhere in the universe. ─ Philip Kindred Dick, Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?

I only feel like myself when I am alone. ─ Peter Cameron, Someday This Pain will be Useful to You

I'm full of love, and nobody wants it. ─ Dylan Klebold

I was interested in everything and committed to nothing. ─ Gregory David Roberts, Shantaram

I am a lover without a lover. I am lovely and lonely and I belong deeply to myself. ─ Warsan Shire

It was not the feeling of completeness that I so needed, but the feeling of not being empty. ─ Jonathan Safran Foer, Everything is Illuminated

Maybe you're right. Maybe there's no escape. After all, how can you run from what's inside you? ─ Sam Winchester, Supernatural

Sometimes I think everyone is just pretending to be brave, and none of us really are. Maybe pretending is how you get brave, I don't know. ─ George Raymond Richard Martin, A Storm of Swords

Maybe this world is another planet's hell. ─ Aldous Huxley

I think I'm moving but I go nowhere.

Friday, February 8, 2013

All That He Ever Was

He talks as if everything is fine
Questions my motives
as if I'm calling my bluff
Insults my character
as if I'm lesser than the entirety of this generation's worst
He talks as if everything is fine

He talks as if everything is fine
Degrades my goals
as if I'm incapable of achieving them
Tears my dreams
as if I'm better off living his reality
He talks as if everything is fine

He talks as if everything is fine
"I love you," in the end, he says
He talks as if everything is fine
He is everything.

Monday, February 4, 2013

Silence the Internal Dialogue

"Just imagine... that moment of pure joy, where it almost makes your heart hurt, because this is the epitome and the culmination of the best time of your life. One that you will never ever forget."


Yesterday is History, Today is a Gift, Tomorrow is Mistery...

Tomorrowland Aftermovie Tracklist :

01. Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike vs. Sander Van Doorn - Project T

02. Pendulum - The Island

03. Dimitri Vegas, Like Mike & Wolfpack - Ocarina

04. Yves V & Felguk - Wow

05. Otto Knows - Million Voices

06. Ivan Gough & Feenixpawl ft. Georgi Kay - In My Mind (Axwell Mix)

07. Dimitri Vegas, Moguai & Like Mike - Mammoth

08. M83 - Midnight City

09. Laidback Luke, Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike - ID

10. Dimitri Vegas, Like Mike, Coone & Lil Jon - Madness

11. Swedish House Mafia - Greyhound

12. Nari & Milani - Atom

13. Swedish House Mafia - Don't You Worry Child

14. Dimitri Vegas, Like Mike & Regi - Momentum

15. Dirty South & Those Usual Suspects ft. Erik Hecht - Walking Alone

16. Chuckie ft. Junxter Jack - Make Some Noise

17. Yves V ft. Dani L Mebius - Chained

18. Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike - Tomorrowland Anthem 2012 (Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike vs. Yves V Mainstage Remix)

19. Steve Aoki & Angger Dimas vs. Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike - Phat Bram

20. Outro: M-3ox - Beating of My Heart (Matisse & Sadko Remix)

Sunday, February 3, 2013

7 Things Even My Closest Friends Don't Probably Know About Me

I love to find the bad in people before actually knowing the good in them. That way, I distinguish decisions, actions and circumstance with good reason and of greater impact. And for the most interesting part, there's the tendency that people annoyingly disappoint you then ridiculously surprise you later when you least expect it. Bittersweet!

As I quote Anita Shreve,  "I wonder this: if you take a woman and push her to the edge, how will she behave?" I will take the leap. Yes, I am the most stubborn person in all the land! Let the stillness of mountains be tested, just so I can prove my stand no matter how pointless, unnecessary or inconvenient they may seem.

I'm very particular with details! And the irony of this statement, is that that's more than enough said.

Silence is by far the most deafening sound I've ever heard. It is, in it's simplest sense, the complication in uniformity, the trouble when you are still, everything in an abyss of nothingness. It's the kind of noise that haunts you sleepless at night, the ship that meant to sail endlessly. Very consuming.

Often times, I involuntarily tuck my hair behind my ears. Hate it. It's practically the only mannerism I first realized doing in 3rd grade, tried training out of my system since, shamefully kept failing. People mistake it for flirtatious body language, like it's supposed to actually mean something. Well it doesn't, for me, at the very least. I purposely did it for someone once, I wasn't even flirting! And I felt absolutely ridiculous.

I like the number 7. It looks symmetrical to number 1 without the commitment of having to be the best. The casualness of being figuratively and literally odd, and the remoteness of being a tad off fascinates me. Like how I find a lapse in a specific style to be very amusing, or a peculiar trait in various people's character that makes them equally diverse from one another, so adorable and interesting altogether.

By now you should know this from everything listed above, but I'm gonna say it anyway. I have bipolar thoughts. I have pet peeves but I love fractals. Yes, I am inconsistent and everything in between.

I tend to keep explaining myself to people, only to realize that the only person I needed to believe in what I was saying was me. I think that telling people why I act and think such changes their perspectives to understand my point of view, when I'm also subconsciously changing mine. Oops, there I go again.

Well those were 8 things you actually read about me. Except the last one was one thing I didn't know about myself, until a friend recently stated otherwise. What's yours? :)