Silence the Internal Dialogue

"Just imagine... that moment of pure joy, where it almost makes your heart hurt, because this is the epitome and the culmination of the best time of your life. One that you will never ever forget."

SOON.

Yesterday is History, Today is a Gift, Tomorrow is Mistery...

Tomorrowland Aftermovie Tracklist :

01. Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike vs. Sander Van Doorn - Project T

02. Pendulum - The Island

03. Dimitri Vegas, Like Mike & Wolfpack - Ocarina

04. Yves V & Felguk - Wow

05. Otto Knows - Million Voices

06. Ivan Gough & Feenixpawl ft. Georgi Kay - In My Mind (Axwell Mix)

07. Dimitri Vegas, Moguai & Like Mike - Mammoth

08. M83 - Midnight City

09. Laidback Luke, Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike - ID

10. Dimitri Vegas, Like Mike, Coone & Lil Jon - Madness

11. Swedish House Mafia - Greyhound

12. Nari & Milani - Atom

13. Swedish House Mafia - Don't You Worry Child

14. Dimitri Vegas, Like Mike & Regi - Momentum

15. Dirty South & Those Usual Suspects ft. Erik Hecht - Walking Alone

16. Chuckie ft. Junxter Jack - Make Some Noise

17. Yves V ft. Dani L Mebius - Chained

18. Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike - Tomorrowland Anthem 2012 (Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike vs. Yves V Mainstage Remix)

19. Steve Aoki & Angger Dimas vs. Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike - Phat Bram

20. Outro: M-3ox - Beating of My Heart (Matisse & Sadko Remix)

7 Things Even My Closest Friends Don't Probably Know About Me

I love to find the bad in people before actually knowing the good in them. That way, I distinguish decisions, actions and circumstance with good reason and of greater impact. And for the most interesting part, there's the tendency that people annoyingly disappoint you then ridiculously surprise you later when you least expect it. Bittersweet!

As I quote Anita Shreve,  "I wonder this: if you take a woman and push her to the edge, how will she behave?" I will take the leap. Yes, I am the most stubborn person in all the land! Let the stillness of mountains be tested, just so I can prove my stand no matter how pointless, unnecessary or inconvenient they may seem.

I'm very particular with details! And the irony of this statement, is that that's more than enough said.

Silence is by far the most deafening sound I've ever heard. It is, in it's simplest sense, the complication in uniformity, the trouble when you are still, everything in an abyss of nothingness. It's the kind of noise that haunts you sleepless at night, the ship that meant to sail endlessly. Very consuming.

Often times, I involuntarily tuck my hair behind my ears. Hate it. It's practically the only mannerism I first realized doing in 3rd grade, tried training out of my system since, shamefully kept failing. People mistake it for flirtatious body language, like it's supposed to actually mean something. Well it doesn't, for me, at the very least. I purposely did it for someone once, I wasn't even flirting! And I felt absolutely ridiculous.

I like the number 7. It looks symmetrical to number 1 without the commitment of having to be the best. The casualness of being figuratively and literally odd, and the remoteness of being a tad off fascinates me. Like how I find a lapse in a specific style to be very amusing, or a peculiar trait in various people's character that makes them equally diverse from one another, so adorable and interesting altogether.

By now you should know this from everything listed above, but I'm gonna say it anyway. I have bipolar thoughts. I have pet peeves but I love fractals. Yes, I am inconsistent and everything in between.

I tend to keep explaining myself to people, only to realize that the only person I needed to believe in what I was saying was me. I think that telling people why I act and think such changes their perspectives to understand my point of view, when I'm also subconsciously changing mine. Oops, there I go again.

Well those were 8 things you actually read about me. Except the last one was one thing I didn't know about myself, until a friend recently stated otherwise. What's yours? :)

Block the Sound

God bless you, Uma Thurman.

My theory is, that when it comes about an important subject, there's only two ways a person can answer. Which way they choose tells it who that person is. For instance, there's only two kinds of people in the world: Beatles people and Elvis people. Now, Beatles people can like Elvis, and Elvis people can like Beatles, but nobody likes them both equally. Somewhere, you have to make a choice, and that choice tells it who you are.

-Mia Wallace, Pulp Fiction

Infinite Regress

SONDER

n. The realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own — populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness — an epic story that continues invisibly around you like an anthill sprawling deep underground, with elaborate passageways to thousands of other lives that you'll never know existed, in which you might appear only once, as an extra sipping coffee in the background, as a blur of traffic passing on the highway, as a lighted window at dusk. 

Unrequited

Funny how I came across this old post from exactly three years ago HAHAHA so here's to everything, coming down to nothing. Didn't mean anyone then, don't mean anyone all the same.

I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms.

-Iris Simpkins, The Holiday

Hereafter

Death sits in the chair across from me and watches.

Death sees, but has no eyes.

Death knows, but has no mind.

We often sit together in the night.

Death has one move left, I have none.

-A

God and Science

• Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?
• Student : Yes, sir.
• Professor: So, you believe in GOD?
• Student : Absolutely, sir.
• Professor : Is GOD good?
• Student : Sure.
• Professor: Is GOD all powerful?
• Student : Yes.
• Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?
• (Student was silent.)
• Professor: You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD good?
• Student : Yes.
• Professor: Is satan good?
• Student : No.
• Professor: Where does satan come from?
• Student : From … GOD …
• Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
• Student : Yes.
• Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
• Student : Yes
• Professor: So who created evil ?
• (Student did not answer.)
• Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
• Student : Yes, sir.
• Professor: So, who created them ?
• (Student had no answer.)
• Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son, have you ever seen GOD?
• Student : No, sir.
• Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?
• Student : No , sir.
• Professor: Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD, smell your GOD? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?
• Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
• Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
• Student : Yes.
• Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
• Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.
• Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.
• Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
• Professor: Yes.
• Student : And is there such a thing as cold?
• Professor: Yes.
• Student : No, sir. There isn’t.
• (The lecture theatre became very quiet with this turn of events.)
• Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
• (There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)
• Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
• Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
• Student : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
• Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?
• Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
• Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?
• Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
• Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
• Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
• (The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)
• Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor. Are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
• (The class was in uproar.)
• Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?
• (The class broke out into laughter.)
• Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
• (The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)
• Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.
• Student : That is it sir… Exactly ! The link between man and GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.
• That student was Albert Einstein.